There are moments in life when we want to see things clearly: Should I leave this job? Is this person compatible enough to be my boyfriend? Is it time to change careers? As a human, there are many times in our lives where we wish making these decisions could be easier. We hope, wish and pray that some life-force will blow the answer right into our laps. One of the biggest life lessons I have learned (and work on daily to accept) is that asking to see things clearly is not the same as making things easy.
I am pregnant and recently left my job to focus on my and my baby’s health. I was working at the company for over two years and while I loved my co-workers, had great opportunities and gained valuable experience, the workload and stress levels had been growing day after day.
It was a hard decision to leave, but after many prayers and therapy sessions with my husband and girl friends, it was the right decision for me. This sounds easy (even to myself as I write the words), but this choice took over a month to make and was caused by a domino effect of smaller life events. A close co-worker turned friend quit, I was given more responsibility because of this, my boss took a leave of absence, and I was forced to work in a very stressful work environment that I knew was putting a burden on the health of myself and my baby. As each domino hit the ground, leaving a mess behind in its path, it became harder and harder for me to do my job at the company I was working for. As all of these things were happening around me, I asked God for guidance on what to do and I felt like I wasn’t getting any answers. A month passed and I finally gave up and let go. I realized that misery is guidance. Each experience I was forced to work through was a lesson I was learning and a path to the answer I needed. I was no longer meant to be at my job and God was pushing me to my limits to force me out of my current work situation.
Many times I have asked God for guidance only to have to wait for what seems like an eternity to get an answer. My wish for all the answers being whispered into my ear never comes true, but when I think of how many things have to get choreographed to make one thing in my life happen, I start to look at things from the bigger picture, as God does. Ninety-nine percent of the time, my big problems are answered in the form of many small life events. Sometimes these events aren’t small at all, but the trick is to notice them no matter how busy you feel you are. Stop asking others for advice, checking your email and social media accounts, or flipping on the TV to ignore your problems. Instead, sit quietly for 5 minutes and ask yourself what has happened in your day, your week, or your life to get clarity on a question you want your answers to. I promise it won’t hurt.
INTENTION: To see things clearly, even when you can’t see the answer.